im so tired... lethargic
- 4月 17 週日 201618:23
Fake a Smile :[]
im so tired... lethargic
- 4月 10 週日 201623:38
活着真的好累
我累了 真的累了 尽管全世界都误会了我 没想到就连你都不了解我 活着真的好累
我还很清楚知道我是我 那个我从来没变过 唯一没有办法的是因为负担所逼 只好赶快找份工作可以repay back all the loans and debt
我还很清楚知道我是我 那个我从来没变过 唯一没有办法的是因为负担所逼 只好赶快找份工作可以repay back all the loans and debt
- 4月 09 週六 201617:16
Sorry but I'm exhausted
It's been really really mess up week, a tough week - continuously 3 days met very very fussy clients, one of them is even a friend of mine.
Thats the craziest thing that I had ever done in my working life, I drove all the way to Ipoh, just to thought to share with that couple, I take her as my family, thats why i did more than what i will usually do for a client. I would have pass her case to my colleague to follow up, I'm not looking at the profit that I'm gonna gain as it doesn't really make a lot of differences, is just the simple heart truely wanna help a family. Sometimes you gave people all your effort and your best, doesn't mean that people will appreciate your sincerity. I love what I'm doing today, I'm using my expertise to create awareness and to educate public. Yes, everyone wanna earn money, but at least I'm doing something right. I always have my motto, I always remind myself - never lost myself, never become the person you hate the most. I gotta be very very motivated. The same week, nightmares continued from one night to another night, kept repeated the same dream again and again. I'm haunted by this nightmare. I thought I had let go. Deep down my heart, i know i wasn't that tough, i always challenged myself, i always pushed myself beyond my limit, but i know, i'm not good in study, not good in science, not good in independent, not good in so much of things. People around see me being very outstanding, very sociable. I wasn't until I have got no choice but to change. I'm tired for being so strong. People might laugh at me, why do you work freaking hard but in fact you should have got a better life with a partner. Why would you choose to suffer yourself? Yes, you might think of me that way, I hate being alone, I wish to pamper all the time, I wish someone is there always to help, When I'm really weak, I wish someone can tell me "is okay, you still have got me here, to be always there when you need me the most". I told myself i shouldn't been trapped into these anymore, I gotta reboot. No matter how many times I tell myself, I tried so hard to cheer myself, still I can't hold up. I feel like I'm in pieces, poor pathetic pieces.
- 3月 15 週二 201621:48
Travel Alone: Sapporo-Otaru-Jozankei
第一次的一个人自由行，真的很不一样，真的学习很多，真的独立了更多。
- 5月 11 週一 201520:43
"While there is life, there is hope" - Stephen Hawking
前天想说快乐原来真的可以很难 今天想说独立不容易但是我要坚强
明灯说女人一定要有独立思想和经济独立 不管现在或将来发生什么事情都可以一个人坚强的过生活
之前也写过了 现在再提醒自己一次 “就算是影子 在黑暗的时候都会离开自己”
明灯说女人一定要有独立思想和经济独立 不管现在或将来发生什么事情都可以一个人坚强的过生活
之前也写过了 现在再提醒自己一次 “就算是影子 在黑暗的时候都会离开自己”
- 4月 24 週五 201516:06
Attract 'em to sign on my Project Agreement
人生一定会遇到必须要超出人意的坚持和信念解决的事情，现在我面对的事情一定可以超顺利的完成的!
我坚信 Law of Attraction，所有跟这件事情有关系的人，一定会帮我完成这个 Research ethics application 的! 现在来开始咯~
- 2月 12 週四 201515:14
Postgrad. Full Stop.
原来有些事 不是我用 law of attraction or the energy of the universe or even my super optimistic 的正能量就一定可以达到的。 原来有些事 是我不管怎么努力捉也捉不住的 怎么努力的要越过荆刺翻过重重的围墙 也冲不过去 就败在厚厚的自利心。我生气 我难过 我讨厌自己的命运被操控着 我讨厌自己再怎么努力也无法改变现在。我的未来因为一颗自私自利的心而被截住了 我不甘心...
