HeartfuleEdge

It has been raining and cloudy for the past few weeks, for all year long sunny season, these few weeks are like a bonus to run away from the high UV index. This weather make me think even more than what I usually did. Another cross road, another dilemma, another improtant decision to make for another stage of life.

Been telling people around that I wanna dedicate myself in medical for the human mankind at least before I die. Standing in front of the 2 paths: current career with high paid (of course came with extreme hard work) and back to life of a scientist continue chasing my dream. After months of dilemma since September, I think i sort of made my decision to go after my dream with half of my current paid. Honestly not too low as expected but can't live a comfortable life like now, give and take, thats what I told myself. Before that was struggling to hit target and told myself a little bit more, the year end is coming soon. Finally here comes December, I eventually got lazier *LOL*. I had been asking myself, is that really what you want? Is it okay to really go after dream all the way? Am I silly? 

Yesterday was talking to a friend who is in sales and another top sale like I am now. Realizing that to be successful and to be the top, it doesnt come handy, the highly motivated spirit and constant action is a must. Finally feel like someone having the same feeling in the loner journey to fight harder for what we want. Well, I ain't gonna be regret letting go the glory and pool of network in this career, I know something better is waiting ahead for me. I just need to have faith and believe, my dream will bring me to where I want to be. 

Kinda lost and not really sure what I want to lay out. Just some "ohm" feel like writing blog.

Recalled one of my colleagues told me that she taught her girl to let go by gently touching with 2 fingers on her forehead and pull away then say "Let Go! Let GO!". It looks like a kid move, but I do always remind myself to let go, forgive and forget with that imaginary fingers on my forehead.

You know, Is okay to alone, right? No one will be there for you forever, especially when you are not blood related, there's no reason for someone to stay for you: Who are you in the first place? Who do you think you are? Learn to be alone and bear with the loneliness. No expectation if you want to be happy.